Day 44: The Truth- Relient K

I've been really leaning on this song lately. It perfectly describes where I'm at in life right now, pertaining to a lot of different aspects of it. I'm having lots of weird urges to just run from my problems right now, but in so doing nothing would be gained but a false sense of security. I am terrified to let go of the steering wheel of the car that is my life, and this song is a reminder of how wrong I am.

I've collected all these thoughts
I'm dying just to lose them
and if your words are true or not
I'll die trying to prove them.
But I'll just have to accept
That my mind is so inept
and the only thing that's left for me to do is to trust you.

Convince me, because I really need your help
Oh convince me, because I can't see this for myself

I'll put the emphasis on the evidence
Begging for the proof
Sometimes I honestly don't believe it's the truth

This is so unnerving
I know you've never lied to me before
But the things you're telling me
I can't yet believe, yet can't ignore
But I'll just have to accept
That my mind is so inept
And the only thing that's left for me to do is to trust you

I'll put the emphasis on the evidence
Begging for the proof
Sometimes I honestly don't believe it's the truth
Attempt to place our lives into your hands
Confide in what you'll do
But sometimes I honestly don't believe it's the truth

It's a world full of cynics
Who say to stay alive in it
You've got to stick with what you know
But the soul is always achin'
For the heart to start takin'
a chance by letting go

So let go.

Attempt to place our lives into your hands
Confide in what you'll do
But sometimes when you're trying to sleep
In all your doubts and your faith your degree it's cause'

Sometimes I honestly don't believe it's the truth